Rin

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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

マチ子サロン

本当に好きだから、誰にも内緒にしておいて、
自分だけでそっと抱きしめていたい。

私には、わがままな一面があります。
だから最後まで迷ったのですが....書きます。

素敵なものをたくさんの人と分かち合うのも、
悪くないかな、と思える今日このごろ。

私には、好きな漫画家さんがいます。
毎晩の楽しみのように彼女の描く"センネン画報"を見てきました。
見て、震えたり泣いたり、ふわふわしたり。
彼女の綴る風景に触れると、自分の体の中にある、
本当にたくさんの感覚を思い出す。

数日前の雨の日、
私は廃校になった中学校の教室にいました。

あの時感じていた窮屈な自由をなつかしく思い出す頃、
みんながそろい、起立をして、礼をして、
マチ子先生が出席をとり、授業が終わるまでの間、
私は大好きだった一番前の窓際の席にいたのでした。

最高のロケーションの中で行われた、
"センネン画報 その2"発売記念ワークショップ。

その日は、センネン画報を教科書にマチ子先生が決めたコマ割で、
"雨の日"をテーマに作品を作る、という授業。

窓の外もちょうど雨ふり。
教室ではたくさんの素敵な作品が生まれました。

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Saturday, May 15, 2010

コントロールバー

私は蟹座で、母性が強くて、
でもB型で、気まぐれで、
愛情に欲張りで、そのくせ一人でも大丈夫になりたくて、
白の他には、黒しかないんだと思っていて、
全部もらえないなら何もいらなくて、
あまのじゃくで、まに受けすぎで、
算数が苦手だった。

そんな自分が嫌いなわけではないけれど、
自分に振り回されるのって、けっこうなエネルギーがいる。

素敵な大人になるということは、
感情を上手にコントロールできるようになること、
というのを、私が素敵だと思う大人の口から聞いたとき、
"冷たい人間になれってこと?"と反感を覚えた。

けど。

それは自分が分かるようになってきた証だし、
ありのままを受け入れて、
愛せているから成せることかもしれない。
心が冷たくなるどころか、振り幅はより豊かに揺れ出す。

まだまだ器用ではないけれど、
一生、完璧にはやれないだろうけど、
私もだんだんそうで、
最初に書いた色んなことには、
中間が存在しているというのが分かるほどには、
大人なったと思う。

あいかわらず計算だけは苦手だけど、
そこに折り合いのつく日の、いつか訪れることを願って。

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Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Stupid People

Stupid people,
Gotta love em.
They can be funny.
They can be stupid.
They can be everything we love.
They can be everything we hate.
They can be anything they want to be.
I have been told,
Time and time again,
I am a stupid person.

Now,
If stupid is another word for funny,
Then yes I am stupid.
If stupid is another word for random,
Then yes I am stupid.
If stupid is another word for me,
Then yes I am stupid (forever) .
If stupid is another word for everything i missed,
Then yes I am stupid.

Call me what you will.
You'll never affect who I am.
If you bring someone down,
Your the stupid one.
If you hurt someone in anyway,
Your the stupid one.
I'll stand up for those hurt people.
I'll try and help the stupid ones.
I'll try and promote peace however I can.
One stupid person at a time.

Rin Yamada

feel me?lol

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Thursday, April 15, 2010

This Chaotic World

So here I am,
and here you are.
We're stuck in this chaotic world together.

You pierce my lungs,
my whole body goes numb.
You watch as I fade away to nothing.

You said you'd love me forever,
but there you go.
Leaving me to wonder what I've done.

I said you'd never want another,
but here I am wrong.
Wondering what they have that I don't.

So here I am,
and here you are.
We'll die in this chaotic world together.

Rin Yamada

depressing poem?i think not,most would find it reality check!lol
why cant i write happier poem,is there something wrong inside me?do i have depression?but in this crazy world,who dont?fuck it,i dont really care!lol

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Sunday, April 11, 2010

If I Were

If I were a princess and you were a king,
Would you make me your queen?

If I were a blood-sucking vampire
And you were terrrified of anything human,
Would you mind if I bit you?

If I were a beautiful flower and you were a bat,
Would you eat me?

If I were anything in the whole world,Would you care and notice me?

Rin Yamada

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do u like my drawing?

ok,let talk a lil about my weekend,i get so much rest at home now,i dont know what to do with myself,poem written,drawing done,what's next?i guess i dont appreciate free time much.lol,am i a werido?i feel almost like santa,lazy doing nothing much when i know i should do something more productive,and i was kinda moody again,anyway,tomorrow's a new day,and im sure it be better!(^_-)

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at least i've gotton enough rest to last me a life time...

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Sad and Disappointed

Yes,i am extremely sad for Thailand,what she have had became today,where is the thailand that i love so much?who is really at fault here?The thai goverment or the red shirt?

Im not a smart person when it come to polititcal issues,but what i know and strongly feel,if the red shirts carry on what they are doing now,they are not only destroying their country and unconsiously or maybe fully aware their very own loves one, families and children are suffering due to their action.

So i say STOP THE RED SHIRT!burn it all if possible!bring back the peaceful and wonderful thailand that so many people love!why bring so much unrest to the citizens and country!violence is never a solution!dont be fool that this is a peaceful protest!

I know my writting this blog would offend numberous people,but i just wanna speak my mind!if i could ever have a chance,i wish to fly to bangkok right now and stop the red shirt and make them see sense,but then i would be killed or gunned down or whatever violence they might use on me ,wont i? haha

My mom is still in bangkok,I pray to Jesus christ our god to keep her safe.

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Red shirt violence!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

I would like to share

this amazing poem with you guyz cos it is so beautiful and when i read it,it's make me tears,i fall in love with it,maybe someday,i would like this poem to be read when i pass away...please enjoy this poem with me..

Do not stand at my grave and weep

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.

Mary E. Frye

it beautiful isnt it...

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